Bra shopping

oh YAY

I made do with some bras taht I bought in a local store near our house. They're okay but they didn't have a selection of bras with larger (*ahem* pornstar larger) cups. Just lots of bras with C and D cups in larger band sizes. Well I don't need a larger band size. My ribs aren't expanding, it's just the girls themselves getting bigger.

I used to be a 38DD which was pretty damn pornstar big enough. Now I estimate that I'm a 38G. Theoretically a 38DD is really a 38E - they just don't like to scare us women folk with the larger letters. Somehow DD sounds better to the female psyche than E. from what I can tell i've gone up 2 cups sizes - which would put me at a 38G. Although a 38F in certain bras might be good.

LORD DYING. What the hell size am I going to be when these suckers fill out with milk? This is nuts!!

*sigh* so anyhow - I think I'm going to have to resign myself to 'grandma bras' to get the right fitting size. The larger band bras with smaller cups were okay to 'see me through' but they really aren't fitting properly (the band is too big/loose) so I think I really do need to find something more suitable.

Heaven help me.... I'm going bra shopping.


p.s. I found a good bra site... helps you to measure and figure out what your 'true' bra size would be and how some brands measure (i.e. what your size in THAT brand would be). Very helpful!!

http://www.plussizebras.org/measure.html

Ok - hope I got it!

I tried to fix the link to the live journal blog - hope it worked this time. Sorry about that!!


Update - I had another ultrasound on Monday. 11 weeks - can you believe it? Now I'm over halfway to 12 weeks - time is just zipping by it seems!

I'm gonna x-post from Making it Mine - cause I want to document my feelings somewhere so I have them (*just* in case all the lovely MIM girls get sick of me and kick me out of the club or soemthing - kidding! ... but you never know... lol must be the preg hormones talking!). No but seriously servers go down and posts get lost - I guess I wanted it in 2 places as 'back up'.
....

OB appt this morning. Blood sugars are doing good, doc is happy with those. Lost a few lbs so far - but doc isn't freaking. Neither am I. She said she wants me to gain 20 lbs max and won't freak out if I don't gain anything (given my current height/weight).

Had another ultrasound. Simply amazing! Little arms legs, hands, feet, jaw face - awesome. Little bean was rolling around and moving arms and legs and kicking! It was sooooo coool to see that. Seeing something like a baby made it SO much more real to me. Amazing and overwhelming at the same time!!

I left the office thanking God that I had never been faced with any hard choices earlier in my life. I don't think I would have ever chose abortion for myself, (but I know that when you're in a situation the whole world changes - and I couldn't possible know FOR SURE unless I was actually in that position myself). I have had friends who have chose to abort and I totally understand and support their choice. I thanked God too that I live in a part of the world where women DO have choices. What priviledges we have! We're so lucky as women to have been born in North America, we are already blessed just by that fact alone (Okay - maybe a bit too much Oprah watching lately! lol sorry!).

But I have to say it was an overwhelming thing - seeing that life in me. A small child growing. AMAZING! I walked out of the OB appointment thanking God for the my path so far up to this point, for all the things that he kept me safe from, for everything that I've gone through (yes even the heartbreak of PCOS and possible infertility). Everything I've gone through is what makes me who I am, and why I'm going to strive to be the best mom that I can be.

I wanted to say too - no matter what choices you all have made in your lives - I support you so please don't think this was an anti-abortion diatribe - I could have easily found myself having to make that incredibly, unbelievably hard decision myself at one point in my past (when I wasn't ready for a baby). So no judgement from me, AT ALL. It's a choice - and I'm so grateful we all have that choice! I just wanted to share some of the emotions and thoughts that were going through my noggin and heart today

Housing update

x-post from livejournal (giving livejournal a try!) Here's a link to my livejournal blog: http://www.livejournal.com/users/javajael/282.html
Update on the house hunt...

We found too GOOD candidates (now we even have a choice!!).

3 bd townhouse with great layout and lots of living space for 950.00 a month (plus utils) groundswork and snowremoval is covered. Attached garage. 20 mins from Tim's work and close (5 mins or less) to easy grocery shopping etc.

or

2 bed HOUSE. Full basement but it's cold down there - less living space than the townhouse but we'd have our own beautiful back yard, deck, and even a firepit - a place to have friends over and hang out!!
10 mins from Tim's work, 15 mins from major grocery chain, hospital etc. 850.00 plus utils.


We're checking on Utils to see if there is any major diff between the two (like on average does one cost more to heat/cool etc).

Both places have access to highspeed internet so I can continue to work from home (MAJOR bonus - we wouldn't take a place if it didn't have access to highspeed internet).

I really like the idea of the house - BUT there isn't a great place for me to set up bead stuff or fly tying area for Tim. There is room to put a desk in the living room and one in the bedroom - so we'd have our computer space covered. Chances are we'd have to get a wireless router though (not a huge deal).

We could do some set up in the basement BUT it's cold down there - not really damp (even with the major rains we just had) - but still cold. It would be even colder in winter. There are heating ducts down there but in the summer time youwouldn't want the heat on (upstairs you'd want the ac on in the summer!). It's also cheaper than the townhouse but we'd have to do our own grasscutting (there is a lawnmower for the house) and snow removal in the winter - driveway isn't that long. No garage with the house though - so Tim would have to truck the icehouse up and down the basement stairs - a pain but definitely do-able.

Soooo - tough choice. Wow how did we go from abysmal choices to 2 really good ones?? LOL

What do you guys think????

Surviving

Nausea wasn't too bad this weekend (yay!!) I'm glad because we had a lot of work to do running around looking at apartments and houses.

I'm really torn about what to do with our housing situation. There's a very good chance we'll only be in this new area for a year... possibly 2. We don't have our green cards yet, its *really* scary to buy a house when you can be kicked out of the country at any time with 10 days to leave.

AT the same time - rent is ATTROCIOUS. Even 40 mins to an hour from the new plant facility ( which is 40 mins from the north suburbs of Minneapolis/St Paul already!) we're running into rents as high as 1500. Most in the 1000-1200 range... but man there are some real DUMPS in that price range too. The search has been really frustrating. Even looking at buying a house is scary and frustrating.... little tiny 1940's houses out in the middle of nowhere - 200K and UP (yes UP). New construction is even worse. IT's insane?!

I don't know how people made ends meet, I really don't. Tim and I both make good money... the banks are saying we're approved for 250K on HIS SALARY ALONE. Not even taking into consideration my salary. That's NUTS! They're figuring 45% of your GROSS income should go towards housing. WTF? that's more than one paycheck a month that goes to housing ALONE. Where does the money for groceries, utilities, gas, car maintances, student loan payments come from? If we bought a house in that range it would be nutso, we'd never go anywhere or do anything again! No movies, no dinner's out (or VERY Rarely). No extra money for unexpected health issues, no money for new clothes when they're needed. Definitely no money for a honey moon or vacation.

That's insane I tell you.

WE're both frustrated. We wonder where our money goes as it is. We just have to keep in mind that we had a wedding to pay for, and up until 2 years ago we had been living in TWO households and paying hundreds in gas to see each other every weekend. I had a small amount of credit card debt. We got that paid off last year, and my car is *almost* paid off (next month it will be). So we're just *now* in a position to start saving money for a downpayment.

Both of us feel 'behind' in where we should be in our lives. We see so many people younger than us with a house and cars, and four wheelers and boats etc. We wonder why we're having such a hard time of it? I keep reminding myself that a LOT Of people are so far into debt its crazy. They have no savings, no 'buffer'... they may look like they have it all but it could be taken away any moment. Also - a lot of these people have lived in the US all their life. They had access to decent paying jobs during school if they wanted to, and they're paying less in student loans than either of us pay (my student loan payment - even after being reduced and with the exchange rate in my favor is $500 USD a month - yes A MONTH). The truth is a lot of people have a head start on us.

And the other truth is - they're just THINGS. It's all too easy to get wrapped up in 'what we don't have' and forget about what we DO have. I know this. I've seen this first hand. I've seen people living in poverty, dying of starvation. Our quality of life is farrr above what 90% of the world experiences.

Still - finding a place to live is frustrating the hell out of us right now!!